today...was another boring day..friday practically just slept the whole day.=.=
thursday at least after my prelims i went out to gca with my friend...got a few goodies ... happy a little.emo alot D:
today afternoon i had a talk with my mum and her sister. we're planning what to do with dad when he comes home from overseas.some family problems thing.well,today,i found out quite a bit about my mum and my dad when i was still too young to understand. my dad made the same mistake...not once not twice.but 4 times.
i dont understand why he does all this kinda shit.
doesnt he want a normal peacefull family?
why make so much pain and hurt?
damn.i feel so sad.
why are all this shit happening to me?
i have enought problems to deal with without having to add my parents divorce on it.
just dont understand.
i really feel sick and tired of having to act so strong and mature in front of my family.
its really a bliss when i get to be a child.literally,when im with my friends.
i dont mind ,actually,when they call me xmm.
at least i get to live my life as how it should have been in the past.
when im supposed to be happy and carefree.
worrying about exams and things im gonna buy.
im actually dreading stepping into my own house.
i fear for my life daily.
hanging out with friends.its just going out.
must my dad threaten me?
must he threaten to break my legs?
fight my friends?
i dread gogin back home.
being in the house is just like being in a cage with a lion.
if i were to make one wrong move,im just gonna lose my life.
what a kind of life i lead.
its pure bliss to be a child.
even if its not gonna last.
sick and tired of fighting and being strong.
i wana give up.
maybe i should just give up everything.
love,hate,life.everything.
i think i would be better off that way.
life sucks.