Friday, November 28, 2008
sianz!!!!super duper sian!!!!i todae the whole day..was waiting for the bleach team to come my hse to do the props n weapon again..n ltr nd go pan in the box..gt my costume..cos i gt scamed...ROARS...then i frm 12pm wait til now...stil no one..walao
sian diao...then skip stil sick so cant come..[gt well soon worx!]witout him..alot things duno how do....D:
then tonite kaname/matsumoto/wanying staying over at my place..tonite n tmr nite..for sunday's photoshoot....ishida aso wan stay over..bt i didnt let him..x.x
lols...
the bleach team wan do dance for the compi..bt then..hav u ever heard of byakuya or hitsugaya dancing??lols..then i suggest a fight/dance..[wahaha win win ]
so we r gona fight to songs..most probably.
hopefully..no one wil gt killed in the process...x.x
lols....haiz..busy busy hobby of mine..
its hard,exp n busy..
it needs commitment n money..
but its fun n rewarding ..^-^
wah..now evryday gt ppls come my hse liaos...XD
now tt photoshoot coming closer[tis sun!!]all come my hse choing the props n weapon..
aiyo..then since 10am nd reach chinese garden..matsumoto,aizen n ishida..mayb my onii-sama as well wil stay over at my hse on sat nite..matsumoto wil stay frm tmr ..XD
sianz.the weapon all at my hse..look lyk i gang or stm..-.- so many sharp thingys...XP
i wonder wher they wil all slp..i oni hav an extra slping bag...-.- oni 1!!
sian de lor..aiyo..my wig...T^T..duno how make it curl lyk rukia de...
nvmx!!i can do it!!XD
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
sianz..ytd wen to taka buy materials for our diy-ing of the props...then wen to skip hse to take the swords..then to hinamori's hse to do the weapons..we left the wigs on teckhui's head..rukia's n matsumoto's...XD damn cute...shuld hav taken a pic...x.x we all laugh til wan die liao ler ba..XD anyways todae ..sanji,shunsui matsumoto n ishida all coming my hse..XD onii-sama todae gt fever..so canot come..T.T tmr then he come..now..witout him..duno how the hell to do the props...T^T
onii-sama gt well soon wor!
harlows~~long time no post liaos...XD
i jus came bac frm hong kong!!
its was vry dry,nt vry cold...ther..
the disney land sux wors...all the games ther were reali kiddy n the stuffs r super exp...x.x
i paid 4 bucks for a bottle of orange juice...-.-
i sat on a rollercoaster for how long ??0.o?
then we watch a fireworks show..[no wonder thers global warming..-.-]the show lasted for 15min....
then we went bac hotel..XD their mac n kfc ther all hav pork stuff...
haiz..so wasted the trip.,...i shuld hva jus nt go for the trip..go for two days of AFA instead..damn wasted....idoits..
hahax..i gt my laptop ler....damn happy..but i nt used to the keyboard..always type wrng...T^T..sadz..i wan go AFA..damn la....
Friday, November 14, 2008
harlows~~thanks to evrybody hu came ytd!!^-^its was fun...!haha..teckhui was late for 2 hrs..-.- then we made him eat a egg filled wit wasabi..XD i hav the vid..if u wana c it..i'll upload it soon..XD i had to finish 15 eggs...-.-..of coz i didnt finish all..bt i ate 10....*roars* ah how can use one hand n do push ups..0.0 its was so damn cool...my presents..ALL r soft toys...hahaha...then we played cards wit my hello kitty marshmallows..-.- bt its was fun...found out tt ah how lyk lin jun jie as well..XD yeahs~~
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Yuuki uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Yuuki does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.
Yuuki will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.
Yuuki is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Yuuki doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Yuuki will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
Yuuki can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.
Diplomacy is one of Yuuki's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Yuuki can disagree without being disagreeable.
Yuuki is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Tan learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget.
Yuuki is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.
She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.
Yuuki's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Yuuki that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Yuuki also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Yuuki is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Yuuki's self-concept is artificially low. Yuuki will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Yuuki to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Tan is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
Yuuki is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
Yuuki has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.
Yuuki has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Yuuki has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Yuuki fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Yuuki has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Yuuki seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Yuuki seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
since u said all this..i guess..now u no longer hav feeling for me..if tts the case..pls tell me.dun let me stand alone in the dark..i wana learn.i dunwan to b scared n terrified alone here...its reali scary.im sry tt i lied to u.i nver did hav any bf in the past.i treat them as reali close frens.u r my 1st bf.i m reali sry..mayb i didnt live up to ur standard of a gf.mayb i jus dun gt wat u expect me to do.im terribly sry bout tt.mayb i m suppose to kiss u n i didnt.mayb i shuld b more helpful.mayb i shuld do watever u had told me to.mayb i m supposed to do special things for u.i duno wat i was expected to do for u..i m reali reali sry if i did nt do wat u wanted.i nver thought tt i was worth ur attention.wasnt worth for u to even b frends wit.yet i felt tt i cant do witout u.i strted to wan to noe u btr.the thing tt reali cant 4gt is tt u told me,the 1st time we chatted,tt u had a sad past.u told me tt ur ex didnt treat u well.at tt time i tot to myself tt if i m worth his time,if he lets me b his fren or even closer,i wan to b able to make him 4gt all tis.the 1st time u asked me out,even though its jus to study,i could nt hav been happier.i was happier then i hav been in a long time.but i had nt knew y.i was willing to sacrifice all my time jus so tt i can c u,i gt into trouble wen i gt home.but i had nt care.even wen i gt kicked out of my hse.my oni thoughts was about u.i nver once thought tt if i gt into trouble bcoz i spent time wit u,i'll blame it on u.everytime things happen,even though i may say stuffs tt sounds vry much lyk me blaming u,i hav nver reali tink tt way.i can swear tis wit my blood my life n my soul.i tried my best to stay out of trouble,but trouble always found its way.wen u had to solve the problem.i always cried wen i'm alone.i didnt wan to cause u all tis.i felt guilty tt all tis had to happen to u,ther were so many times i wanted to jus let go of u.u had told me tt u lky some1 else,many times u said tis things to me,i wen home,thought about it,wanted to jus let u go and do wat u urself find happiness in,but in the end,b4 i m able to send tt msg,i always break down n cry.i jus cant seem to b able to let u go.i'm sry for being so selfish.i shuld hav let u go.no,i shuldnt even let myself into ur world.i wasnt fit to even b seen by u.its all my fault.but wen i had u,i was always proud to hav u as my bf.im sry to my close frens,i may hav gone overboard.i shuld hav tot of ur feelings,its was wrng of me to keep tellin u bout my bf.but to me stil u r the best guy.i noe tt i noe nt tt much of guys.but in tt 3 months we spent tgt,i felt tt u were the best.ur flaws dun seem to b flaws,they seem to b more of a cute n loveable thing.i learnt to accept it all in.n i found tt i love u for hu u r.i promised myself,i wil change hu i m,i wil change it all jus for u.every little thing u do for me,even if u jus took wast little time u hav to meet me,i felt happiness tt u stil cared bout me n i m stil loved by u.but i felt guilt in equal measures.guilt tt i caused u more trouble n inconvience.everytime aft i met u,i would always cry.being wit u,i was forever guilty.even though i wanted to c u in all the free time i had,i lied to u,i'm sry,i told u i ddint hav time.so i met u oni in the evenings web i had the whole day free.i jus cant bear tt guilt.wen u tell me tt other girls r pretty,i felt jeolous n sad.i wanted u to oni hav me as the one n oni girl in ur world.i'm sry for being so selfish.i learn to accept tt as well.i realise tt is part of wat make u u.n i cant control wat u say n do.in tt one month tt u were away,i cried eveynite.the pain of nt being able to c u was jus too much.sry to my parents hu saw me thru tis time.i caused u pain as well.sry.wen u came bac n i finally saw u,the hapiness was more then i could imagine.
now tt u no longer wan to rmb me,my world had stopped.its now worthless witout u.the happiness is no longer ther,but the guilt is.so is tt empty hole wher u had use to fill.i'm sry for trying to stop u goin out wit ur fren.i realise noe tt i;m jus being reali selfish.u r ur own person,i shuld nt hav done tt.i'm reali sry.i could nt keep tis all a secret.im reali sry.i m jus reali sry.reali sry.
if u took tt much time to read tis,i'll say sry to u again for making u waste ur time.if u reali dun love me anymore pls tell me.but no matter wat u say,i wil wait.i'm sry for stil wanting to b selfish n caring bout oni how i feel towards u.