Wednesday, September 23, 2009
breaking down.
my heart is breaking.
pieces are falling.
tears joins the wretched path.
the crimson road i see.
is it really a shock to me?
tables are turned.
no longer loving what is hated.
rather,to hate what used to be loved.
resigned to my fate.
trapped.helpless.
look up,i see the ever present rain.
claps of thunder,flashes of lightning.
it scares me.
held down by the chains called 'love'
is it that bad to detach myself from the chains?
i see people,free.
yet i see people hurting.
is freedom from 'love' what i really seek?
looking back,being hurt.
yet she continues loving.
is it worth it?
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
having to go on with this hurt seems a bit too much for me to handle.
wonder what would happen to me and my family if i were to just give up.
crying doesnt help one bit.
i realise this the first time i understood what was happening in my family.
all he does is betray mum.
all he did was to hurt us.
never once,have he ever done something that made mum happy.
i understand now.
love between mum and dad
it will never work out.
now is the time to forget.
its time to move one.
without him.
Monday, September 21, 2009
i dont want to stay at home!!!!
scary place!
damn it!
i hate it!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
today...was another boring day..friday practically just slept the whole day.=.=
thursday at least after my prelims i went out to gca with my friend...got a few goodies ... happy a little.emo alot D:
today afternoon i had a talk with my mum and her sister. we're planning what to do with dad when he comes home from overseas.some family problems thing.well,today,i found out quite a bit about my mum and my dad when i was still too young to understand. my dad made the same mistake...not once not twice.but 4 times.
i dont understand why he does all this kinda shit.
doesnt he want a normal peacefull family?
why make so much pain and hurt?
damn.i feel so sad.
why are all this shit happening to me?
i have enought problems to deal with without having to add my parents divorce on it.
just dont understand.
i really feel sick and tired of having to act so strong and mature in front of my family.
its really a bliss when i get to be a child.literally,when im with my friends.
i dont mind ,actually,when they call me xmm.
at least i get to live my life as how it should have been in the past.
when im supposed to be happy and carefree.
worrying about exams and things im gonna buy.
im actually dreading stepping into my own house.
i fear for my life daily.
hanging out with friends.its just going out.
must my dad threaten me?
must he threaten to break my legs?
fight my friends?
i dread gogin back home.
being in the house is just like being in a cage with a lion.
if i were to make one wrong move,im just gonna lose my life.
what a kind of life i lead.
its pure bliss to be a child.
even if its not gonna last.
sick and tired of fighting and being strong.
i wana give up.
maybe i should just give up everything.
love,hate,life.everything.
i think i would be better off that way.
life sucks.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
It hurts D:
should have kept my mouth shut...
sucks.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
IT fair.
walk
look
talk
eat
chat
shop
play nx piu.
sweat
tired
leg damn pain
emo._.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
just went to watch where got ghost today..and i rememebered..first time..two days in a row watch movie..x.x the movie is scary de can..somemore..cinema inside less then 15 people..x.x
at least i didnt cry =D hahax..but the movie quite lame ._.
Monday, September 07, 2009
the time traveller's wife is a very touching yet super confusing movie..x.x
Thursday, September 03, 2009
wow...they need a little kid like me to shut them up?=.=? awesome.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
the proposal!
its such a epic movie XD
if you're up for a movie full of office and family romance plus laughter..this is the movie.
its simply awesome.
so funny..XD
its about this woman who was forced to propose to this guy cos her visa expired...so she had to marry the guy.and alot of things that happen in between..must watch.i say le not funny le..XD please go watch..EPIC..XD
todays emaths paper..is simple..but very idiot._. its like..i keep thinking i wont get it right...siannn..duno will pass or not... ss...lucky i chiong the right chapters..x.x i MAY pass..x.x tmr chemistry...i think im gonna fail badly..
The Proposal is a simply hilarious show. its EPIC. hahax...everyone should watch it...XD i will talk more about it once i finish studying..which.. whould most probably be tmr...>.< oh yea...i want post my kor de picXD
hahax..cant belive he is back..i missed him so much for the past two years..
he made me cry on teacher's day D=
argh...
