what the fck do you wan me to do?
you are my mum.yet i cant evevn be myself in front of you.
why the hell must you remind me of him?
i have almost completely forgotten him.yet you must remind me.
when you do.it hurts a hell lot worse then before.
and all i did was kept quiet and you said im showing you attitude.
then what the fck do you wan me to do?
scream at you? cuss and swear at you?
i cant possibly do that.the fcking family is already in bits and pieces.
it hurts enuf to come home to a cold and unfeeling house.i dunwan to make it worse.
so why the fck must you trigger anoother row?
isnt it good that we can have a meal in peace once every blue moon?
its not everyday i get to eat with the family.
yet you ahve to make things worse by reminding me of things which i dunwan to know.
wat do you get by doing that?
wat do you get by hurting me?
you blame it all on me.
all i did was do my best to make sure what you said didnt affect me so much that i showed it.
so i kept quiet.
and you said its my fault that i was reminded of him.
wat the fck. you are the one who reminded me of him.
and it became my fault?
what the hell.
you jus fcking made me hurt so bad.
damn you to the pits of hell.