Break ups.happens all the time.yet the one having ti initiate the break up.i wonder if all of them felt the same way i did.i doubt so.some may still love their partners.some dont. i doubt i still do.yet i feel hurt when i had to hurt him. maybe i just dont like to hurt people.but we really cant carry on.we werent meant to be together.even if you said that you dont know what you did wrong.somewhere inside,something would be nagging at you.you do know.just that you havent come to terms with it yet.if i were to tell you everything,its gonna hurt so bad.i hate to think that i have to hurt you more the necessary.it already pains me to have to do this.but we really cant carry on.im no good for you.im not your average girl.you should know that.you may not realise,i remebered everythingyou ever said to me.promises,loves,hates,wants,dislikes.everything.i put alot of trust and hope in you.i had faith in you.yet you broke promises.it may be insignificant to you.but it meant alot to me.time and again,i thought to myself that it would be ok.i just need to trust you more.yet time and again,my hope just gets dashed.things you told me,maybe you dont realise,i remebered.i tried to be how you would want me to be.but that just resulted in me acting in front of you.whenever i tried to be myself.you force me to act.time and again.with no one to tell things to since you didnt want me to tell,its like a time bomb waiting to explode.
im sorry if ive hurt you.i didnt meant to.all this may be crap to you.but ive wanted to say all this but i couldnt.i didnt want us to end the way it did.but i really had no choice.im sorry.hate me all you want.i wish you would.just hate me.it would make me feel better.im sorry.
but please.i beg you on this.dont blame any other people but me.blame no one but me.please.stop adding on to my pain.its enough that i had to hurt you.dont make me guilty that ive caused trouble for everyone.please.hate no one but me.
