why does this feeling keep going through me?
you are within reach,
yet i could not bear to reach out and grab you.
you are so near,
yet i dont dare to take another one more step closer...
i feel frustrated,sad,happy all at the same time.
frustrated because i dont have the guts to reach out to you.
sad because i cant have time with you.
happy because i get to catch even just a glimpse of you.
i just dont get it.
didnt i promise myself not to love anyone.
its really not worth it.
i should stop all this stupid worthless feelings.
but i just cant.
i wonder why.
maybe i just dont want to.
although i may say so.
my heart thinks otherwise.
you are so near.
yet far.
with one more step i could have reached you.
yet i could not.
why is this so?