today was freaking dumb.
anways..seriously having problems with my family.
at times i feel like killing every single one of them
at time i want to just stab myself and die.
most of the time,i jsut wish i could disappear.
my family just blames everytihng on me.
they have their affair outside.
and they blame the fact that they dont love each other.
the blame it on me.ME...its their own fault and they blame me.
i was told to tell them where i would go.
i called and told my mum.
my mum screamed and said she didnt care.
i told my dad and he said he doesnt want to know.
then i dont tell them and they blame me.
said it was my fault i didnt care about the family or them.
you said you didnt care.
so i didnt too.
you dont love each other and thats my fault too?
why did you even bother to have me in the first damn place?
if this is what you say to me, it just tells me you dont even want me around.
this just sucks.
i think,i just think too much.
and i emoed a little today.
not very sure if kenneth they all saw thru.
hope they think i was just tired or something.
i have to put on a happy face.
i dont want to make anyone else affected by what im feeling.
its just selfish.to spoil other people's day cos of myself.
so i went out in the afternoon with alex cos he said it was fun to go taka..o.o..
lols..we went there.stone.eat.stone.walk.then go woodlands liao..
i had cotton candy!! and its super nice!^-^
its like big and fluffly! and Pink!!XD
and it sorta melts in my mouth..so its really cool and nice!
then met kenneth and potato to play technika.
i had another game and its still damn awesome to play it..
but i still failed...>.<
then kenneth kept talking about me and alex being tgt all the time..=.=
we arent k?
i dont like him.
we met for the how many times..2nd?=.= wth...
i think kenneth asked me why i stopped poking him.
and i think he forgot ytd he asked me to stop poking him..
but since you want me to poke you.i shall=D
anyways~
we went to amk to eat.
alex went home
then i went with kenneth and potato to nebo eat..
kenneth was like tempting me with the food la..cos i no money..do i only drank the stupid drink which taste like soap.=.=
then rhyn came then we all go virtual.
kenneth sat down play and rhyn pursuaded us go arcade.
then we play liao go back virtual.
met kenneth on the way and he and potato went home.
then rhyn send me home
so TADA~ here i am typing this emo and stupid piece of shit.=.=.