i dont want to do this anymore.
this hurts too much.
i didnt know loving anyone..could hurt so very much..
or maybe,i had just forgotten how painful it had been.
the icy stabbing of your actions and words.
it makes me breathless.
the spot where my heart is.
its feels as if a knife had really been plunged through it.
the pain feels real.
i cant take it.
the words you speak,
the actions you do,
it all leaves me bleeding and hurt.
it makes me gasp for air.
makes me feel like im drowning.
the tightness around my chest just wont let go.
its feels as if you want to kill me with just your words alone.
its so scary.
i'm afraid.what if,
i really drowned?
will you be there to save me?
will anyone be there.
my family doesnt care about me.
they never did.
my friends,
arent even friends.
everyone whom i know and talk to,
in the end,
just leaves me when i need a hand.
all they do is to make use of me.
for their own gain.
what about you?
i doubt you even care about me.
im just a thing.
a thing you play with when you are bored.
am i right to say this?
when you find something more worth your time,
you throw me out into the rain.
i still hope.i still hope that you would take me back.
i still hope you would find a little more use of me.
just so i can spend more time with you.
but i doubt so.
thinking of this really hurts.
i was so naive..
thinking i had friends family who actually cares about me
as if that would ever happen.
no one actually cared about me.
everyone just used me for their own gain.
now that i lost my usefulness.
you all throw me away.
my love for you just got shattered.
its just too fragile.
i wont love again.
it hurts too much to.
the icy knives just keeps plunging into my heart.
