i am sooooo pissed,confused,scared and sad.
man,how much emotion can i hold at one time?
shit this.
i seriously want to see him tomorrow.
but its like,i seem to know there is a 98% chance he wont turn up.
so of course im pissed.
hey,didnt we promise each other time together every week?
its like we are now meeting once a month.
fuck this.
im seriously confused over what you think.
we arent technically together.but we are going out.
then now,its like you treat me nothing more then a friend.
but you still get jealous at times.
i feel like you dont want me anymore but you are unwilling to let me go.
i seriously am confused.
do you still like me?
im scared of the answer.
no matter how brave a face i may put on for my friends and you.
i am really scared.
i wish to talk to you.over everything.
so its like..judgement day for me.
if you still want me,fine.
if you dont, we go our seperate ways.
but im really scared to lose you still.
i may not show it.
but i still have alot of feelings for you.
im just damn shy to tell you.
i wondered if we will go our own way,
if we do,
it will feel like another part of me got ripped out.
i know it will heal.
but now,it hurts even to think this way.
it will hurt even more when it really does happen.
i seriously dont know what to do.
damn,i still need you.
but you dont seem to need me anymore.
damn it.
im the only one then?
