cant you all see?
cant you all see that im in pain?
why must you all continue to hurt me?
can you all just let me be?
i thought that i had found friends.
but in the end,
its still the same...
im still being used.
i had once thought to myself,
even if i am being used,its better then being ignored and treated like i didnt exist.
but i was wrong.
i use to hate being ignored.
hated being a shadow.
i wanted to be who i really am.
i wanted to stop putting up an act.
i want people to accept me for who i really was.
and not who i was acting.
but,it seems being a shadow ,
was alot easier and less painful.
i regret trying to be myself around you all.
i regret letting go of my act.
i regret opening up myself to everyone.
i should have pulled the curtains closed.
should not have let any light come in.
now,the light come in thought the open window
and everything is no longer hidden in darkness.
it hurts so much.
i want to give up.