yanwei! i really hope you see this..i have alot of things to tell you but i really cant bring my self to tell you...I'm afraid ill hurt you..but suffering alone doesn't seem to be the answer. i want you to know i really miss you.terribly...i have no words to put how much i miss you...its too much..every time ..every Saturday..remember we promised to reserve Saturdays to us..the two of us..every sat..i don't get to see you..i cry..not because of broken promise..is because i didn't get to see you..i cant take it all in..i need to see you..to reassure myself that you are real and not someone who is going to disappear just like that...there was once you smsed me at night,before you slept,you told me not to think too much..everything is alright...with the cute smiley you always use..that just was the best..i was sure..sure you wont leave..that night was one of the best..i slept without fears.
whenever i plan to meet you..my hopes were forever high..but it was always dashed ...but i don't blame you...i just feel guilty..i don't know why..i just feel a rip in my heart..i just miss you too much...i really really want you to be mine...but i want even more to belong to you. if i do..then you will never disappear..i really really miss you alot..i feel hurt when i realise..we lost some of the sweetness last time...it hurts..but i will no complain...because i really love you...really really.. i seem to accept everything about you..yes i do complain..but not for reall..more of for fun..i love you for who you are. right now..im just hurt and sad..because i think you dont want me anymore...do you still want me?