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I Wish,I wish with all my heart,
For you to hear my very thought.
Wishes for you to love my very being.
And be with me through this eternity.

haiz..today..is meant to be boring..cant go out with lion..cause he got friend's birthday...T.T then in the morning..i had to go school for 2 hours of social studies...then go home...plan to go amk hub got cancelled cause my mum spent all her money on perfume..can you belive it?300 bucks on stinky perfume???it deosnt even smell nice! gimme the money and ill put it to better use!!like buying my computer and cosplay stuffies! DX argh!!!!
then come home..plan to spend the whole day watching blood+ ..XD
lifeless sia..then tomorrow gona go art class..then go alice 88...then go shopping..with lion wanying teckhui and lucyfer...
i will live through saturday de!!!! gambatte!!!~

baby love you lots.

blood+ is a damn freaking nice anime..XD i chiong finish season one today!!XP
season 2-4 tomorrow!XD
bwahahax~~~
hmmx..had a chinese test in school today...
laze around..watch terence go crazy.o.o..
study.
sleep.
read.
study.
eat.
sleep.
go home.
sleep.
eat.
tution.
study.
sleep.
what the hell? this is my life.

ahhh!!!!*bangs wall* i feel so lovesick!DX i like...cannot stop le la!!DX shitty!!! i miss him so much!DX argh!!!!




i want...blood..wth...what the hell is wrong with me ??!!! im like trying to cut myself..not cause i want attention or what..i just want the dumb blood..DX argh..its so disgusting..! but i cant help it.!!!DX ahhhh!!!!!
i want to die sia!!!where got people like that de?!!!

yeahs!!!!you sms me back today!!XD i know i overreact alot..but still..im damn happy when you sms me back...everything just seem right.its like...with your greeting..even just that simple greeting.it puts my heart at ease.my black and white world gets coloured with just your simple sms in the morning..^-^ i dont really know how to out it in words.im always afraid that you will not reply me cause you dont want me anymore.im always afraid.im sorry that im like this.i cant help it..i have no idea why...but im sorry..then your sms comes along.even just a simple good morning assures me that you still want me.^-^
i love you.

please spend more time with me...please...i really miss you alot alot...too much le...i cry just becaouse i cant see you...please...i want to see you..spend more time with me..

please spend more time with me...please...i really miss you alot alot...too much le...i cry just becaouse i cant see you...please...i want to see you..spend more time with me..

nothing much to post about...haiz..school is falling back into the monotone state.. -.- im bored..help me...lunch break is dangerous...not for me..for other peoples...DX i freaked out last night..omg...sry you had to see me like that..o.o im surprises you arent disgusted or something

can someone tell me what the hell is wrong with me?? why do i feel like biting peoples??why do i feel like cutting myself??why do i want blood??? what the hell is wrong with me???DX argh...!
i guess i know why i love to eat bloody steak so much..o.o...and im disgusted by the fact i want blood..damn it...but i still want it so much>o< help!!!!argh!!!!
should i? or should i not?

haiz..here to post about all star photoshoot yesterday.i was actually pursuaded to go.so i was happy happy want go de.but the day before .i saw the thread..and things that are not exactly nice.then i didnt want that.so i went to ask someone.then the person pushed all the blame to me.[likewise....]then of course like that ..sad lor..then cry lor..cry alot..i tink i slept at 3 or 4am...-.- then aft that woke up le went to bath etc. then met up with rhyn to go to raffles.on my way there..get this group of peoples there..then they ask me for number..-.- then i freaked out and i ran away..XD then reach raffles le,passed sword and present to rhyn to give to lion.i dont want to go and disturb what ever peace the people there have..then i went to walk walk round...walk..walk...walk...walk..WALK! from 4pm to 9pm i was walking!DX i walk from raffles to bugis then to orchard then to raffles then to lao pa sat.-.- walao..my leg..damn power...[on my way walking..i went kinokuniya to buy my twilight series!!XD and i got a poster!!XD yeahs~~]then of course..before i went to meet lion after his photoshoot.i saw the whole gang of them walk..then of course..dont want trouble..so i ran..n ran...n ran..then after they left..i went to meet lion then with james and alot of peoples walk to lao pa sat to eat very late dinner.me and lion shared a whole meal..i wonder if he can be full just like that..o.o vry little only lehs..you should have eaten more...make me eat so much..later i get fat then i come find you arx..anyways..then lion and me went first because we need get home ..then go home lorx...thats my super sucky day...but i realise no matter how emo or sad i am..when i see lion i damn happy liao..=X

i think im just being too lovesick over you.i cant seem to stop thinking about you.whenever im down or sad.i can count on you to be there to cheer me up.^-^

so now its all my fucking fault??u were the one hu strted it.now its all my fault?? r u happy now??now tt im all emo n miserable?happy? r u fucking happy?

i want to be yours!only yours!teach me what to do?? i have totally no idea.
orewa daisuki!^-^

can i belong to u? can u belong to me? can i say im urs?can i say u'r mine?can i ?

i wonder,should i say im plain evil.or just too much in love?im selfish.though i love being selfish.i want you all to myself.i know that im just being ridiculous but thats what i really want.i wonder,am i just being too selfish or what.when i was sad and you came and ask me whats the matter,i felt happy.i know its stupid.but just caring about me makes me just so happy.when you were worried that it was your fault,i felt happy too.becausethat shows me that you still care about me.it helps steady me.keeps me from thinking too much.i want to know you more,know you so well that i cant hurt you anymore.i want you.>.<

im emo. i feel pain again.i used to keep it in a box..sealed up tight.able to laugh n joke..wit evrybody else..all my fears left bhind.gone.no longer afraid of being left out,afraid of being left behind.afraid of being forgotten.i used to think that it will not happen again.i thought i had shut it up tight.but jus that few sentence.jus that few..brought back all the memories and pain.im back to the old me. fearing for others.afraid that im just not good enought to be with them.i feel that i m again no longer worthy to be in my friends presence.im trying to shut that box again.im afraid of my frens leaving me.but i cant help wanting them too.im no longer good enough for them anymore.

dun u gt it?my problem wit evrybody is.i dun tink im gd enuf.i tink i sux.low confidence.i stick out.i dun noe how to tok well.nver had.oni now did i srt to b albe to.im afraid evrybody wil hate me.im afraid all wil leave me.i dunwan to b alone.but neither do i wan anyone.i dun gt the rational behind my own tinking.but i do feel tis way..i feel tt ppl dun lyk me.they tok to me jus so tt they can find a weakness in me n use it againt me.or use me for their own gain.ther was a time i was contented.was happy even.to jus hav tis one person in my life.then the lies strted.n i doubted.i acted..i didnt want to lose him.acted as though it was ok .his lies were fine.but i couldnt b rite inside.i feared he wil leave.i feared tt evrything i do wil make him lyk me less.til oneday all the acting fell away.revealing the me.bleeding n hurting.i had lost myself then.didnt wanted to live.a long time ltr.i healed.but the hole was still ther.i tried to patch it up in mani way.some which hurt alot of ppl.im sry for tt..i reali m.now tt i saw wat i did..i reali reali m sry.i noe ive hurt u.i feel guilty.im sry.i hope u understand.now i found some1,i tink i reali love.i wan to love wit all ym heart again.lyk how i used to.but i dun dare to.im afraid..afraid tt history is gona repeat itself.i dunwan to feel tt level of hurt anymore.tt hurt was near death.now i found him.i wan to love him.but my own emotional barrier is preventing me frm doin it.im frustrated.i love it wen he gts jealous over me,it shows tt he stil cares for me.i noe tis is sick.im sick in the head.but at least i noe.i wan to show him tt i love him alot.love him enuf to sacrifice all my time for him.i wan to show him tt i truly wan him wit me.being unable to c him or hear him hurts me alot.i nd to physically c him.i missed him tt much.toking to him relaxes me.being wit him bring joy beyond words.wen he leaves.i always hav the urge to run aft him.hug him then n ther.n nver let go.evry second of my life[xclude the time im having nightmares n listening in sch]i hav to tink of him.nt being able to c him makes me hurt of cos.but i miss him too much to feel pain.instead i feel the urge to look for him.and shout the 3 best words to him.i wan to show how much i miss ihm n love him.but i can nver pluck up the courage to.guess im nt tt daring yet.i hav alot to tok to him about.my day.how it wen.how much i missed him.then fun i had.n i aso hav lots of question for him.how was his day.how was his frens.was he alright.but i dun dare to.im afraid ill make him pissed off at me.i nver wuld wan tt.wen my frens tell me to tell him the truth.i reali wan to.truly.but i dun dare to.incase it hurts him.in case he doesnt wan me anymore cos of tt.i hav no idea wat to do.how to b the rite one for him.ive had but jus tt one guy.hu lies cheats n teaches me how to flirt.by flirting himself.ive been tinted by him too much.i hate myself.but i hate him more.i wish he could hav a little guilt.but nvmx.he is him.im me.but i reali hav no idea how to b a gd fren.or gf for tt matter.im afraid tt evrything i do is gona spoil the relationship.i nd to b sure tt i can love him.it reali sux to b me.it sux to b my frens too.havin me around.

im hurting again.its all the past..its coming bac to haunt me.i noe i wasnt meant to b alive.i wasnt.i hurt huever im close to.im a evil person. pls jus stay away frm me.jus stay away.lion,rhyn,wanying,max,nelson and evrybody i care about.i dun care if u care about me.i dunwan u to care bout me.jus stay away frm me.u'll hurt me less tt way.i dunwan to plunge anymore icy knife thru anyone anymore.i dunwan to stain my hands anymore then it is now.i dunwan to tint my frens n close ones wit the feelings n thoughts of mine.im jus a person hu wasnt meant to live.jus leave me alone.leave me.let me b..i dunwan to live.bcos i hav no nd to b.was nver meant to b.i've harmed too many ppls.im a evil person.let me kill myself slowly.starting by severing the bonds i hav wit all of u.wen im sure ,wen im sure u all had 4gotten me.ill dissapper.thus nver to hurt anyone ever again.my death.my happy ending.im sure evryone wil b happy cos its a happy ending.

IM SRY IM SRY N IM SRY! I DUNO WAT I DID WRNG..MAYB I DO..ITS KILLING ME FRM INSIDE OUT!BUT..PLS!!I DUN GT Y..!I NOE U R ANGRY WIT ME!I DUN BLAME U! BUT PLS!CAN U AT LEAST SPARE OTHERS?!PLS?!TAKE IT I BEG U! I NOE ITS ALL MY FAULT..MY OWN ENTIRE FAULT!BUT PLS.! SPARE MY FRENS!IF U REALI HATE ME!PLS JUS GO AT ME!PLS!I DUN UNDERSTAND WAT IS HAPPENING!BUT PLS!I DUNWAN TO HURT ANYMORE!!I NOE TT I DID THINGS REALI WRNG BUT CANT U AT LEAST SPARE A THOUGHT FOR THE PPL AROUND ? I NOE IT HURTS U ALOT..I HAV NO IDEA HOW TO COMPENSATE U.IF HATING ME FOREVER IS A WAY TO COMPENSATE..ILL LET U HATE ME.IM JUS SO SRY.IF ITS GONA MAKE U FEEL BTR..I FEEL DAMN HURT.I FEEL LYK A KNIFE JUS STABBED ME.I HOPE U CAN B HAPPY OVER MY PAIN.JUST SPARE THE PPLS ALL THE REST OF UR SPITE? DIRECT IT AT ME.MAKE ME FEEL PAIN IF TTS WAT U WAN.I DO FEEL REALLI HURT.IM NT SAYING TIS FOR FUN.HOPE U R HAPPY.ILL DO MY BEST TO STAY OUT OF UR LIFE.WIL TT HELP?IF U WAN TO,U CAN SCOLD ME.I NOE NTH I DO CAN COMPENSATE.IM SRY. I noe u dun read my blog often.oni knew u came once.so i hope u can read tis.n pls jus take it out on me.nt my frens or anybody else .jus me.

i wonder y..evrytimr i come home frm sch ..happy...wan to ask my mum go eat wit me..evrytime ..she has to smash my happy day..but scolding me out of the blue..hey im trying to b caring..im making a effort to nt break up the damn family..i dun use to b like tis..i bcame rebelious partly cos im a teen..partly cos i hate my life..n partly cos of u. i dun gt y...evrytime i care bout u, u hav to scold me..i jus dun gt it..i ask if u wan to hav lunch wit me..u shout at me.then ltr u tell dad tt i didnt wan to care bout u..hello..its ur own fault..i did ask u..i did try to care bout u.but u nver let me..im sick of keeping up the pretense..it sux.y cant u b a normal mum??y mus u scream at me over nth? u wan me to care bout u..? then u strt doin the same to me..im SICk of all tis..im sick of u.sick of having to act normal...unfeeling in frnt of u...u dun noe how much it hurts to hav my own mum scream at me for caring.it hurts alot..u blame me for turing to my frens..its nt tt i dun love the family..is u dun let me..i love it wen i ahv frens over..cos then.u bcome the mum tt i always love..the sweet caring one..nt the screaming one...i reali sick of having to pretend..tt all is normal..tt u r normal..tt i dun gt hurt by ur words. im sick of u. i wan to love u.but u arent letting me. i dont want to see the family in pieces.

valentines day was ytd..was meant to b a fun day. i was xpecting lots of fun n laughter..but it was so bad. rhyn was emo..for osme reason..den i wit him go orchard..damn awkward..he asked me to gt a rose for lion.then wen i heard the price..i didnt wan.but then he go buy..tnx rhyn.even though i duno y u buy it for.tnx alot.

wen to ps ther..wait tgt wit wanying n rhyn for lucyfer n shiki...waited for 2 hrs...then ok la..i tot..at least ltr i gt to c lion..nvmx de..then in toe end..play play..lion suddenly say he nt coming..cos he fought wit his frens.then of cos i wil emo..then i c javan they all..lyk all couples..then make me even more emo n sad..then we folo them go look look..i waited outside .cos reali no mood.then wanying came n comfort me..then i realise tt i was crying cos i missed him alot.n i felt guilty cos i tink tt im the one hu cause lion n his fren to quarrel..mayb lion wanted to come find me..then his fren dunwan..then they quarrel.den its all my fault..so i cried.

then wanying tok to me liao..happi a little..but then i saw skip they all..then i gt all emo again.cos i realise tt skip used to lyk me..then suddenly c him..make me all emo again..but i tried nt to bring evrybody's mood dwn wit me..im reali sry..i had mood swings all over the place ytd..im sry.while i was stil happy..i took tis stupid foto wit rhyn.
the damn price tag on the glasses r irritating...-.-.n i look weird too..but haiz..at leat i had a moment of happiness.haiz..then emo emo..then go home lorx...tts it..nt much le la.

ohoh!.n im sry for screaming at lucyfer at pc bunk ther..cos i sw some1 i dun lyk tok to him..
sry..

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO MY FRENS!!XD

im in no mood to post anything nice todae.mood gt lost wen tt guy came n sms me.-.- so go away for todae..im sry if i pissed anyone of.[other then those i hate,im nt sry.im happy if i did]

i reali duno how to post anymore liao le la...sux man....haiz..some dumb ppl...put words into my mouth...-.- i nver say anything..then say i gt say thing...-.- wth...
but anyways..todae gt cross country..i decided nt to pon..then tmr can go out late late...XDbwahaha...
i wonder y my mum n dad work but nd to borrow money frm me...my mum borrowed 50...my dad borrowed 30...-.- walao..arent they the ones working..nt me? they gt income..nt me..y borrow frm some1 hu doesnt hav income???o.o?
then tmr is Valentines day..actually wanted to spend the whole day wit my frens n baobei de..but then he gt jio frens out..so he is oni gona spend the nite wit me oni..DX haix....but at least its btr then nth...XP hahax..but now..i cant giv him my homemade present anymore le la..DX walao...but at least i hav a present..>.<>.<
i super long nver c him le ...T^T damn sad la..i dun tink he noes how much i miss him.i tink im goin crazy as well..i miss him too much..the extent of it..o.o is shocking..even for myself.i cant put into words rite now how it feels...i can oni put them into words wen i feel tt i can.
haiz...my world is falling apart again!!!
baby,i miss u so.

todae sch soo boring!!!haiz..DX spend so much time ther drawing..=screwing my drawings...DX hahax.but at least i spent the time usefully..drawing can improve my skils..unlyk some ppl..-.- stare into mirror...for duno how long,at least for a while or stm can la..but consistently..n for prolonged period of time..-.- even teacher says so..o.o ..how wonderful..-.- gt low marks stil gt guts say cos dunwan put in effort...of cos..since no longer taking the subject...i shall nt say more..haiz..i m totally dreading tt day...DX yy?!!of all places!! y ther??!!! i love tt place ...wanted to study ther de..but..yyy??!!!DX argh!!!but mus nt let tt bother me too much..since its gona b a waste of time..to tink bout tt person..-.- waste brain cells too..nt worth the effort..-.- haiz..
some1 say me ah lian..o.o how wonderful...now.i hav a whole day to tink..WAT MAKES ME AN AH LIAN. slapping ppl .if tt makes me ah lian horx...then evrybody can b liao lorx.-.- then the parents of children aso can..cos slap the kids..wah.then the whole sg can b ahlians liao lorx..8D how wonderful!


anyways..y care wat i write on MY BLOG? its mine anyways..i nver state name..it has gt NTH TO DO WIT U WATSOEVER...so y care? unless U R THE GUILTY ONE.if u r too dumb to understand. THE ONE HU I M TOKING BOUT IN YM ENTRIES.so. r u? if u arent then y bother tagging me?

well..other then seeing some1 tt pissed me off todae..well..i gt pissed off by tt person all the time
-.- nth much happen..xcept the fact tt i didnt listen thru the whole day at the teachers..DX
hahax..n i nver sms my darling too..DX damn..i 4gt bout it..DX shit it..i
i hope he wun b angry wit me..>.<>-<

y sec 4 so stress?!!! DX haiz..lessons n even more lessons!!walao...T^T
i dun if i shuld pon fri cross country..i reali dun wish to c tt guy ther..i duno wat i will do..n i reali dunwan to disgrace my sch..-.- cant say i love my sch..but i reali dunwan to kena trouble in sch uni...haiz..imagine i create a scene ..eg. slap his face..in sch uni!!DX nt worth it sia..dirty my sch name..-.- haiz..dun how sia..wan pon but dun hav the guts to lie to my parents..o.o..i cant belive i said tt..hahax..but i did..then sat gt physics lessons...-.- ther goes my valentines morning...n i tot of staying over at my fren's hse..-.- haiz..sad case...but at least i stil hav a valentines...XD btr then nth...
in sch todae damn sian lorx..rhyn gt reali pissed..o.o scary sia....then nth much le lorx...cos sch is always boring..orhs..so boring tt i hav time to draw...XP

hmmx..todae in sch..damn sian la..xpecially wen u noe the weekend is V dae..then u wil tink tt the week is damn long..DX but luckily fri is cross country..XD so no sch tt day~~XD haahx..but y of all places..at NYP??!!! i dunwan go ther n c tt dick face ..DX ltr i c him,gt 3 thing i may do.1-slap him.2-gt damn pissed off.3-cry. but i tink i wil do the 1st two..XD seems more btr..fri is the day b4 V dae..i dunwan cry sia..ltr the nxt day i look horrible..=X mus look n b my best for my baobei :X
haiz..but todae in sch..duno wat happen..suddenly sick..then vomit sia..DX then slpt thru lessons..DX haiz..
but nvmx..i stil alive n living..XP lols..i wna live at least til aft V dae..XD
valentines is coming~

i wen to malaysia todae!!DX so tiring! but i had alota fun eating..>.<
im gona gt fat real soon...T^T XD hahax..but was worth it..i gt to c all my relatives..XP

frm now on..i wil try my best to tell u everything.everything tt goes on in my heart.i may nt b able to tell u evry single thing.but ill do my best,my vry best to tell u as much as i can.n i hope it wun hurt u if i tell u everything tt goes thru my head n heart.

im soo bored!!!DX waiitng for my dad n mum to gt ready then can go hsewarming le~~XD but i tink wil b boring lorx...haiz..eat n eat...hahax..then no one pei me as well..DX im gona b the oni teen ther.DX awww man...! im so gona b bored to bits!

pls tell me the truth,i dunwan feel so insecure.if u r bored wit me.tell me.ill jus let go.its my fault to hav dragged u into tis.im reali sry bout it.but pls tell me the truth.i cnat take anymore fears or lies.but no matter wat,i love u

i reali duno how m i to trust any1 whom i m willing to love wit my heart n soul.
its all bcos of u!i made me so terrified to love some1!u!flirt! the 1st time i met u.u took my 1st kiss alrady! i dun even noe wat happen! i used tob one hu tinks tt relationships r sweet n loving!u made me tink,tt relationships consist of kissing n such all the time!now tt i look bac u r jus using me as a toy!u r jus plain despo for something to kiss n play round wit! arent u?!
i reali regret nt listen to my kors n evrybody else tt time.seriously. i find myself so dumb.i shuld hav jus listen to them n kicked u in the balls.im jus plain retarded n idoitic nver to hav done tt!
damn it! im such an ass!
evrytime i go out wit u,u HAD TO KISS ME AT EVRY ISOLATED PLACE THER IS.y the hell did i let u?cos u were my 1st bf n frm u i tot tt tts how a relationship is supposed to be.i learnt all tis frm u.u asshole!evrytime we go out,i felt so rpoud tt i had u.then u wil b ther,turning round looking at gals.n saying out loud tt they damn chio,shuld jus break up n go wit them instead.wth!i shuld hav jus let u!y did i even hold on!i dun gt it!
argh!c ur fone..all the i miss u smses.tt werent meant for me.then i come bac frm overcs.u call n say i kiss ur fren 3 times.then strts goin out wit her.n i aint allowed to go along.wth.i shuld hav fcking given up!
yyy did i tolerate all tis!i let u go out wit tt gal! i nver uttered a word to u!i vented it all out somewher !but i noe it wil nt gt to u!i dun gt y im such a bad gf tt u hav to say n do such horrible things to me!its nt lyk i flirt wit other guys while u were somewher else rite?i nver call n say tt i kissed another guy!wth did u do all tis to me?!
i jus dun gt it.i dunwan feel tis way.the impression left on me,i dun wan it.a relationship isnt supposed to b lyk tt.i wana b able to tell evry single doubt n fear to the one i love.nt to hide it all,tinking tt it wil b btr.i wana change the mind of mine of the fact tt a relationship consisit of lots of kisses n such.kisses r gd.but nt the way u wuld had delivered them.u jus wanted a play thing.n u gt ur wish.i hope u r happy.bcoz in xchange for ur happiness,i lost my heart.

i promise tt i'll tell u everything. i will keep tt promise. pls dun give up on me.

haiz..i feel sooo stressed out!!DX
but tis vid is so funny~ XD
go watch~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

it sickening to nt b able to noe wat is happening.i m sick of being kept in the dark.im sick of having to guess wat is goin on.i wan to noe wats happening..i dunwan to b afraid to take the next step..havin to hav to stay in the dark nt noeing wats gona happen..wither im gona die or if im gona live,i hav no idea..im sick of all tis..i reali dun lyk it...y m i b the one to b kept in the darkness??dun giv me the crap tt u r trying nt to hurt me..cos u r jus making me feel suicidal.dun say tt u dunwana hurt me..cos u r hurting me.i may b paraniod..but i wan to b sure..i dunwan to feel lyk im gona lose u any moment..i feel tt u r gona disappear frm my life anytime.im afraid,evrytime i wake up,i m gona realise tt u hav nver been in my life b4.afraid tt u were oni part of my fantasy.im nt one to take the 1st steps..if i do..i truly wil love tt person.unless u hurt me so deep i can c tt u dunwan me to b wit u.once i fall i love,its hard for me to gt out of it.i wil love the person wit all my heart.
im sry.im reali sry i dragged u into my sucky life,its my fault.n im sry.i shuld hav let u noe..noe bout my past n all,but i noe..at tt time..if i were to tok bout him to u,u wil gt hurt,so i didnt..u shuld noe,he hurt me alot,now tt i love u,my painful memories came bac.of the times,i was lied to.cheated n played around wit.my feeling all shattered.im sick of pretending tt nth is wrng..sick of acting tt nth is wrng wen i noe he was lying.sick of acting tt i love him wen i noe he wans me for a play thing.sick of noeing i had my feeling played around wit.disgusted tt i lost myself to him.y m i so worthless?now tt i love u,i realise tt i cant fully trust u,im sry for tt.i wan to ..i truly wan to.but i nd ur help.i realise even aft so long,my wounds had yet to fully heal,im so sry to let u noe all tis.i promise,i wil find a way,no matter wat,to fulfill n unconditionally trust u.but pls,help me.i cant do tis alone.i hate myself,for lying to u.i truly hate myself.i cant bear to say the simplest three words to u anymore.but if u do hav feelings for me,i beg u.giv me time,i wil find a way.if u find me a bore...if u cant tak eme anymore..tell me too..im telling evrything.giving u a choice to leave me if being wit me hurts u.if letting u go is the best,i wil.now its ur choice.weither u wan to help me heal,or leave me.i promise u wun feel guilty or bad.dun heistate to make ur choice.i wil b ok both ways.i noe tt by telling u all tis,u may find me reali hateful.but i hav to.i dunwana lie anymore. i hope u dun hate me.